Guest Book

I’d like to know what you think about my website. Please leave your comments in this public guest book so I can share your thoughts with other visitors.  Any comments left on other pages within the website will also be collated and added to this page too.

Unfortunately I do not provide a phone service from my website as because I am not a professional medical person or trained in that, I do not feel comfortable being in a one-to-one verbal situation as this I feel is a very specialist skill.


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  • I would like to ask that everyone respectfully observes the confidentiality and dignity of those who use this website and guest book.
  • Please do not put messages requesting information or ask for peoples identities… this will not be given.

Please use the links to the left (under Guest Book) to read the archived comments which have been on my website since 2001.


2011 Comments are below, please scroll down to read them…

I need to apologise to anyone who has tried to send in messages over the past few months, my health had taken a turn for the worse and I am now back in the programme getting help and support. I am getting better and now trying to catch up :-)

  • I must also remind everyone that if you wanted to contact me on a personal level then email me as I will not publish messages I feel are too personal to protect the sender.
  • I do not get your emails address through the guestbook either so cannot respond personally to you this way.




January – December 2011

Date: 05 January 2011
Time: 01:07


I left the royal engineers in 1982, lost to many guys to landmines. Saw service in E.O.D in N.I and all over. Its taken me all these years to admit there is a problem, hiding behind work and pretending all’s fine. 2 years ago injuries caught up and my time in 9 Para, few bad landings, had to give up work and finally asked for help. Make no mistake it’s hard to admit there’s a problem and harder remembering. Yes things do get worse but now there’s light at the end of the tunnel.

Date: 27 January 2011
Time: 10:06


I would just like to say thank you, I do not have PTSD, but someone very close to me does and your site has helped me to try and understand what it is like to be living his life. A natural reaction I had is I want to make

it better for him fix and stop the hurt, but I can’t. All I can do is let him know I’m there for him and that awful word

Date: 06 February 2011
Time: 04:12


Hi All,

I’m after a bit of advice really, I’ve got a few issue’s that I need to sort out, but I don’t really want to

Hi, I think that only half of your intended message came through (above). If you would like to talk to me about anything and get advice you can email me direct.

Hope this helps? Andy

Date: 11 March 2011
Time: 16:40


In 2001 I had a motorcycle accident as a result of which I suffered severe PTSD. On an intelligent level, I knew the signed and referred myself for treatment. 10 months later and after a traumatic roller coaster of a time for both my wife and I I received a weeks worth of intensive treatment followed up by individual sessions. I was lucky and made a full recovery but did not really mention much.

I work in the city and admitting I had what is basically a mental health issue is difficult. I now tell people as a matter of routine because it is important that the more people who know about the condition the better. Lots of our men and women are going to be coming home and need our support.

We can’t afford not to be ignorant of their needs both now and in the future. They deserve better.


Date: 17 March 2011
Time: 10:33


Hi if you suffer from combat related ptsd I received help from combat stress if you ring them they will get you in to one of their centres and finally you have support and mates who u understand as they have experienced the same stay strong contact them

Date: 5 May 2011
Time: 22:22


Dear All,

I was In The Falklands.2 Para. I am no hero, I came back, the real heroes are the poor sods who dint come

I Have some Gongs. It Saddens me, when Ex Forces Sell There Gongs.

Keep Our Guys Safe, Postings For boys. Who Shouldn’t Be There.

Regards Chris ex 2 Para

Date: 13 May 2011
Time: 10:22



Good effort on your website.

I too suffered from PTSD that wasn’t diagnosed until after I left the military. I am now in the process of setting up a place in North East Scotland to fill a large gap up here for those suffering with PTSD and I would be keen to chat to you about how we can work together to create an ever greater network of resources for those still suffering.

Keep up you great work.


Hi Simon, I would love to talk to you further. Please email me direct as I do not get email addresses through with guestbook posts.

Date: 17 May 2011
Time: 15:52


Dear Mr. Murphy,

I am reading your book. I am Italian, and had the good luck to meet a man who freed my city -Trieste- in 1945. He also suffered from PTSD, and at the time got some help from a source that came to him by ‘God help’, not the army.

I thank you for this page…  I also wish to tell you that I would like to help, if there is anything I might be able to do.  I was wondering if you would like to meet. Where are you located in the U.K.?


Romana Turina


Date: 17 May 2011
Time: 19:00


I served in the RAF from 84 – 95, I was a member of an air crash investigation and recovery team based in Wales. Ironically following my detachment to Akrotiri during the first gulf war my MO asked me if I needed counselling…  I just laughed as the most stressful thing we did was deciding whether to sunbathe or waterski..In all the time I spent working at the scenes of air accidents, I was never once offered help for the things I saw and experienced. Like many on this guest book, I often have flashbacks, depression, mood swings and nightmares. I know when you sign up for the armed forces you know you may encounter challenging environments and experiences, but you do not expect to be used and discarded with no support or help.


Date: 2 August 2011
Time: 14:39


Andy, thank you for your website, and your committment to help others,
your a treasured help to many hearts that are suffering/living with this
illness whether they yet know it or not.

For myself this is the 2nd time of being diagnosed with PTSD, most
recently with service related PTSD, not that I saw combat, but I saw a
conflict within the ranks during PH1/PH2 training and the bullying and
it’s extremes, back then was swept under the carpet by the Army, I was

Date: 2 August 2011
Time: 20:12


Thank you Andy, just found your link re Bullying and PTSD, very
interesting. I just wish there was more help and information out there to
be had.

Andy again thank you for being a candle in the darkness.

Ex Services WQ

Date: 18 August 2011
Time: 15:41


Hello all,
Im an ex soldier with 18 yrs behind me. it took 14 yrs after i left the army to finally admit i had a problem. I didnt want to admit i had a problem or that i needed help.

All of the signs that this site have talked about were day in day out part
of my life but i didnt want to admit it.  Please if you do feel like your alone and your the only one, your not. Just because you admit defeat to this illness doesnt make you any less a good person.

keep your heads up

ex RA

Date: 22 August 2011
Time: 19:28


Hi. Coming up to two years now after the Rail Accident in December 18th 2008, I have just been admitted with PTSD. I have regular visits at the Adult Eating Disorder Service St Anne Street Chester on Mondays for at least one Hour.  Its very hard to come to terms with so much trapped in my head, I am trying to release realy bad thought, they seem they do not want to move.  I have home work to complete inc a CD of myself talking to Jayne my Therapist. Day and night I am locked in my bedroom for safety, I am scared of going out of the house to think it will happen all again, Flash backs on certain colours, sounds, vibrations.  I am crying every single day, every hour, every minute. How long can I last, who knows.


Hi Lee, if you want to talk to me in confidence, please email me direct and we can talk.  I am sorry for the delay in getting this message up, with the re-launch of the website and my ill health during the summer has put me back a little.

I look forward to hearing from you soon, Andy

Date: 7 September 2011
Time: 18:56


Dear Andy, A coworker at my office recommended your site. I am so glad I looked it up!! I just wanted to say that your website is the best one I can find re PTSD, thank you.

Date: 26 September 2011
Time: 20:45


I served in the Gulf and NI, saw to many things that still haunt me, been suffering with PTSD for years, I still cant beleive in this day and age people think you should pull yourself together and snap out of it ?

There are hundreds of troops returning right now that within in matter of years are going to need real help, the goverment needs to start training people now to be ready to help them, its not much to ask.  We served our county without question, how much funding is required for at least one trauma therapist to be on hand to help in each major town ?

Date: 1 October 2011
Time: 14:44


good site mate ex soldier myself can you look me up we need to talk thanks and all the best


Hey Colin, please email me direct and we can talk, unfortunately I did not get your email address with this post so cannot contact you myself.  The new set-up with the re-launched website will improve all communication and messages from now on.

Date: 6 October 2011
Time: 15:38


Hello there

I thought there was something wrong with me, I have just been diagnosed with PDSD

Im finding it hard to believe,but in a way relieved at the same time. I have been looking at your website and for once Im not feeling alone. Most of the statements you have made like: I do not fit in or do not belong anywhere anymore I have felt. So So alone.


Date: 9 October 2011
Time: 13:47


Dear Andrew,

I am a psychotherapist who is very interested in helping persons with Trauma, especially PTSD. I would like to know where I can purchase your book. My son Sasha Pagella, was in the TA SAS, but not in combat. However, he was a tsunami survivor in Malasia, 2004 (in the 2 waves-as he went back in to resue, then hit by the 2nd wave, still some memory loss) On the remote beach for one and a half hours trying to resusitate drowned Malay local people including children, before the rescue services arrived. He was ‘gutted’

Felt very isolated from the family afterwards. Invited to the Service at St. Pauls, because of his work with the Red Cross in London afterwards. Spoke on TV and radio 4 day of the Service, but still has nightmares. Now happily married in the US with little son, but would never live close to the water, in spite of being an avid surfer>

I went out to Phuket in Aug 2005 to work as an educationalst/ psychotherapist with Childline for 2 weeks, then 2006 undertook a year’s course in trauma at the Tavistock Centre, London.

I have recently become an ‘expert’ – their words not mine! on Greatvine, which is now linked to Net Doctor and offer telephone therapy.

I would be grateful if you could give me details of where I can buy your book, so that I can expand my knowledge further.


Hi Susan,

you can only buy my book from Amazon, but it is only £10.80 and although I originally said I was giving 40% of my commission to Combat Stress, I have now decided to donate all the money to Combat Stress so they can continue to help and support our brave verterans.

All the very best for the future

Best wishes


Date: 16 October 2011
Time: 00:14


My wife has recently been diagnosed with complex PTSD after 25+ years of crying out for help.  NHS is still trying to pigeon hole her with ” it’s only anxiety..”

It looks like a fantastic site & I look forward to finding others who understand what she’s been going through all these years and that she’s not crazy, just hurt & not truly listened to.

Date: 19 October 2011
Time: 09:09


Love the web site.

Lots of really useful information



Date: 1 November 2011
Time: 21:50


Why are government departments denying that incidents that caused veterans ptsd ever took place?

Hi Ian,

it is shameful that this still happens in 2011, even with all the evidence to show that a natural consequence of war for some veterans will be PTSD.  I would suggest that if you feel you have PTSD that you firstly go to your GP and get any immediate help you need now.  Following that you need to visit the veterans website and apply for a war pension.

Please email me for more details on how to do all of this if you need more help and support, I am always here for you.


Date: 9 December 2011
Time: 15:47


I recently came across your site and have been reading along. I thought I would leave my first comment. I don’t know what to say except that I have enjoyed reading. Nice blog. I will keep visiting this blog very often.




One Response to Guest Book

  1. Mark Edwards says:

    I spent many years working in the Police attending various stress situations, though predominently serious/ fatal collisions. We were aware of frequent problems over reactions to these events so can empathise some. I was recently introduced to an ex-service guy and am going to recommend to provide your details to him.
    keep up the good work, so many have suffered already so much it seems unreasonable to continue in their difficulties.
    To all you guys who are suffering it is important to talk about it and share frequently it is only with help and support that we can bear these things
    best of wishes to all
    regards Mark

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