Archived Messages 2002

January – December 2002

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Date: 12 Jan 2002
Time: 11:11:41

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I have been researching PTSD for a project I need to do in a few weeks and have found some of the information on these pages helpful and relevant.

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Date: 03 Feb 2002
Time: 18:59:16

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hi Pete Mitchell (by deed poll) ex HMS Antrim 1982 Falklands. RN Service 1977-1988 (1977-1980 JMEM to LMEM what a short period!! not ss) 1977 – latter part 1982 all going very well. 1982 onwards ,no promotion, no motivation, excess drinking, gambling, aggressive, subsequent divorce etc etc etc..nightmares. 1988 into civvy street…diagnosed 1995 PTSD after severe chest pains then investigations. Life a bloody mess. I recommend that anyone that recognises any of the symptoms mentioned in this useful site. seeks urgent advice from their GP. If you have the symptoms and you think you are okay and just thought it was you,, you are at risk. please, please seek advice.
regards Pete Mitchell

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Date: 04 Feb 2002
Time: 20:59:05

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Lot’s of good advice, I only whish I had the patience to read and assimilate. You know how it is. PJL@aol.com Falklands Vet

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Date: 04 Feb 2002
Time: 20:59:29

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Lot’s of good advice, I only whish I had the patience to read and assimilate. You know how it is. PJL@aol.com Falklands Vet

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Date: 05 Feb 2002
Time: 21:14:29

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Hi, I suffered PTSD serving aboard H.M.S.Antrim in the Falklands war in 82.There is one other association for exFalkland War Veterans called sama82.Please go to www.sama82.org.uk. This is the first time I have seen your web page and it really is marvellous. So much info is happening now compared to twenty years ago. You have gone to a lot of trouble to let people know just what this illness is all about. You don’t stop there, you actually make an effort to address the symptoms as well and I haven’t seen another site quite like this one in the UK.The only other place I have looked was America were they seem to have a host of info, on this subject,
Thank you so much. John Leckey-ex-Leading Steward-H.M.S.Antrim

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Date: 06 Feb 2002
Time: 09:22:56

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Hi it’s me again, I keep coming back to read a little at a time, open up a chat room. PJLygo@aol.com

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Date: 16 Feb 2002
Time: 11:27:06

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I think your web site is excellent. Your symptoms are a signal and will be a life line to many ex-servicemen. I was lucky, I had a very understanding wife and doctor and could afford to pay for private counselling and I am now coming through to the “normal” side. I did not know I had P.T.S.D, I have been out of the army for 14 years. I just wish the powers that be would give out an information pack to people being demobed,maybe they do now, instead of leaving them high and dry with a condition they don’t understand, let alone admit to. I have never looked for information before and this site is the best of all. I served down south in 82 and have done NI as well. All the best with the site and I hope you succeed in helping a lot of people.

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Date: 25 Feb 2002
Time: 03:48:23

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Hi Andy I am a fellow PTSD suffering est ETC. Vietnam Vet with PTSD since 1973. Whew that’s a long time. I have been to so many shrinks and treatment and done so many drugs they have given me its a wonder I can think at all. I am a member of another PTSD online group. I will come back and check out some more of your site. It looks good.. BE HEALTHY Pete G pmgilbertson@aol.com

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Date: 06 Mar 2002
Time: 10:39:53

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You may wish to add to your Overseas Organisations -= Australia – Commonwealth Department of Veterans’ Affairs (see local telephone directories).
I have recently completed an eight weeks course of treatment arranged by the Department, and have found it most helpful in managing the symptoms to some extent. But it’s always going to be there. The course just helps you to manage the manifestations a bit better, and thus improve your quality of life.
from <johntopcow@bigpond.com>

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Date: 10 Mar 2002
Time: 21:53:18

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I have great trouble concentrating but felt impelled to look around your web site. I have “found it” twice by “accident”. Though it has not been particularly of benefit to me directly the fact that it exists at all is re-assuring and help full.

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Date: 11 Mar 2002
Time: 21:15:24

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Mate went and joined the CLOUD PUNCHER Site a while back. 2 weeks ago I took and overdose, as mates in UK Charles “Nish” Bruce, Keith Johnson both suicided, and an Aussie ex Tankie mate shot himself,. On top of that as well,.. I helped the young Aussie SAS mate killed by landmine in Afgh…., he was joining as I left Unit. Then my Uncle dies 2 and half weeks ago. Another Funeral Mike Colton from the Allied Spec Forces Assoc has been in contact with my wife and has been great along with many other friends around the Globe I “did stuff with”. And as I now wait to go to the Clinic, for “respite Care” and to clean any “painkillers” from my system as none work, and am inured { they have no effect anymore includes doses of Pethadine yep!} to most Benzodiaz…s. Got 3 major Ops on legs to come in next few years, each with 8 month recovery including fuse ankle {they are not going near my back!} so on to come, I always feel better when I can talk to someone. You know what we are like agoraphobic etc, anyway, good Site mate Chris Perth Australia

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Date: 13 Mar 2002
Time: 13:52:57

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Andy, At last a web site that helps me understand what I was told by the Army Dr. I lost good mates in NI, never thought anything of it. That was in 87. Took then till 96-97 to tell me I had PTSD by then no mates, no more family, no real life, lost my job felt alone, still feel alone, get wound up by things, cry a lot, deep debt, still get angry. the list goes on I still need help. Update new partner, she understands.
Keep up the good work Andy and thanks for this web site. George (RRF 78-92)

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Date: 16 Mar 2002
Time: 21:06:26

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Nice One! As a serving sailor who has been diagnosed with PTSD and Depression as a result of Falklands memories it was great to see a British site for PTSD. THANK YOU.

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Date: 20 Mar 2002
Time: 17:15:20

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I’d like to say that it’s about bloody time that PTSD is now fully recognised, I suffered badly after a tour of Northern Ireland back in the late 80′s and I didn’t get the help and support that I needed. It took about three and a half years and countless nights of nightmares and unrest before I saw a private psychologist who himself spent some time in the RAF, so he understood to an extent what I was going through, eighteen months later I managed to bury some of the ghosts that had been haunted.
It is such a shame that your organisation was not around to help me at that time of desperateness and when I very nearly ended it all, if it wasn’t for some of my airborne pals I would have called it a day.
All I can say is keep up the great work and lets keep fighting the authorities for what is still for some unchartered territory!!!
Cheers and stay lucky.
Ged.

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Date: 21 Mar 2002
Time: 14:17:29

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ANDY.
I forgot to include my e-mail address for anyone who wants to contact me its gedmusto@btopenworld.com
Many thanks and stay lucky mate.
GED.

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Date: 28 Mar 2002
Time: 12:32:53

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Great to have sites like these on the web!! Your site looks excellent and the information is great. I was diagnosed suffering from PTSD in 2000 as I served in Bosnia, SFOR 6 in 1999 during the Kosavo conflict. Needless to say I had some shocking experiences…. Keep up your great work! Brian http://www.luchtmobiel.org

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Date: 30 Mar 2002
Time: 14:07:57

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Than you for this site, I feel that you must have been stood behind me taking notes. Your page on bullying is 100% correct even down to my personal records with the mental comment on it.
If you would like to talk, I am contactable at djpi@blueyonder.co.uk.

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Date: 30 Mar 2002
Time: 17:16:38

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Hello Andy, thank you for helping others. bye Kirby

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Date: 03 Apr 2002
Time: 13:24:52

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Cheers Mate
Glad to see I am not alone in this
Ex Welsh Guard Falklands 82

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Date: 04 Apr 2002
Time: 00:53:28

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I recently saw the programme on the Falklands and saw that there were signs of the symptoms of PTSD. I had the good luck to be part of a trial into the therapy for PTSD. Now I feel much better and more open towards others. I really felt at the time I had enough. But this therapy saved my life. Although it was very hard to go through, I was encouraged every week by my own feelings. I began to find a sense of worth and of my inner self. This disorder cost me a good job, a relationship and several years of my life.
The therapy was I would recall on tape the events that kept coming back in my dreams. this tape was then listened to over the course of a week and any other parts of the events recorded on paper.
These would then get put on tape at the next session. several months later my mind had processed the trauma and I had a chance to move on. This worked for me, but you have to admit to yourself that you have a problem. then get yourself assessed, believe me they won’t put you in a padded cell. My only regret is that I did not do this early enough in my life. Don’t suffer. Get Help.

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Date: 04 Apr 2002
Time: 03:02:50

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The whole issue of PTSD is, in my view, one that is returning to haunt the MOD who look as if they will be held liable, at the very least for culpable neglect. I say ‘at the very least’ for in my view, the real story is one of wilful refusal to act, as a matter of policy, on the basis of cost.
MOD, although a military HQ is no different than any other organ of State. Each diagnosed case of PTSD within a soldier’s career means, if it is diagnosed before discharge, an expensive war pension!
The favourite way of dealing with such cases is to ‘gloss’ the behavioural symptoms with the veneer of ‘indiscipline’ and seek an administrative discharge. The other method of dealing is to hide from Parliament the existence of any medical condition by making the soldier an ‘offer he cannot refuse’. That is to say, that in return for him giving 12 months notice to terminate his service, thereby entitling him to a full ‘resettlement package’, the military will not seek to discharge him at very short notice on the basis that he is ‘Temperamentally Unsuitable for Further Army Service’. Such a discharge category entitles the soldier to no resettlement training or courses. This is a non-disciplinary category of short notice discharge. It works particularly well with those soldiers who are married and ideally have young families who face the alternative of losing their Married Service Accommodation at very short notice on return to Civil Life or opting for the more ‘administratively convenient’ form of discharge after serving the required notice period. In this way, there is no record of any psychiatric problems. Even if there were a psychiatric referral recorded on the F Med 4, then it is unlikely in the extreme, that the F Med 19, containing a medical ‘summary’ would record it! In any event, no record of any psychiatric condition means that financial liability is avoided if it places an extra barrier in the way of a claim to a War Pension!
The MOD are, in my view, quite accurate in stating that they have a duty of care during the soldier’s career. However, because such a duty of care does not extend beyond a soldier’s career, the MOD, in my view, wilfully close their eyes to any evidence which may involve any consequential drain on the Defence Vote.
If a PTSD Serviceman is discharged on disciplinary or admin grounds and his condition ‘realises’ years later, then, in the absence of proper records the onus probandi is upon him and him alone to show a causal link between the condition he suffers now, and his Military Service – increasingly difficult with both the passage of time, and the absence of legal aid to bring his case.
While his Service Record will contain an accurate summary of any acts of indiscipline, it will be very unlikely that it will contain any record of psychiatric injury!
By these, and other methods, the financial consequences of PTSD is passed from the Public Sector to the Private Voluntary Sector.
The above scenario is, in my view, the ‘real’ story behind PTSD!
James

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Date: 06 Apr 2002
Time: 12:25:31

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found the web page very interesting, its good to know that there is something like this for those of us that suffer from ptsd through service in the forces. THANKS.

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Date: 06 Apr 2002
Time: 22:29:06

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Greats site and some very honest comments. The issue of PTSD is not going away. I have my own story like so many others. I dealt with it by treatment and writing about what happened. Take a look at www.books4publishing.com. My book is called Forced Out and will be published later this year. You are not alone, so talk Best wishes to the suffers and their families Simon

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Date: 08 Apr 2002
Time: 06:04:26

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As a Vietnam veteran suffering PTSD I found your site extremely interesting, informative and useful and I will pass it on to a number of vet’s in similar situation. As you may be aware the Vietnam Veterans Counselling Service here in Australia looks after Vet’s with trauma. You may be interested in the Australian site for PTSD try www.acpmh.unimelb.edu.au Regards to all and don’t forget you are not alone “remember the dead but fight like hell for the living” PJ pejay@ozemail.com.au

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Date: 13 Apr 2002
Time: 12:08:49

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Please could you help me? I have tried for many, many months to obtain the following information. I need to know the number of the convoy which sailed from West Hartlepool to Sydney Nova Scotia, via Oban in Scotland, on September 18/19 1943. I do, by the way have a bad case of PTSD. Any information you could give me would be very much appreciated. Yours faithfully Robert Johnston. email gaynorjohnston2002@yahoo.co.uk

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Date: 16 Apr 2002
Time: 22:41:35

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an interesting, honest, helpful site. the following is from the British medical journal dated 13 April 2002.gulf war syndrome may be post conflict dysfunction. also lots of stuff on non diseases such as ptsd and gws and cfs. or should I say what certain organizations class as non diseases, its basically another excuse for them to not admit to their mistakes, and to except responsibility for such things as cfs and gws. do they have any idea how humiliating it is to have to try and convince doctors etc that you are not well? I think not otherwise we would be respected and tret with a little more compassion and humanity. any way keep strong barney gulf war and west Belfast

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Date: 18 Apr 2002
Time: 14:10:26

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A great site. This organisation, COMBAT STRESS has some 6000 veterans suffering from combat related PTSD. We have been going for 83 years and have helped over 75,000 people in that time. Our veterans are of all ages and campaigns – WWll, Korea, right through Falklands, Gulf War, many Northern Ireland, and now Bosnia, Sierra Leone and so on who we are helping cope with their suffering.
We are very proud of those we help.
We are always on the lookout for people who are suffering and need someone to turn to. If any of your visitors want to get in touch please either ring 01372 841600 or e-mail us at contact us@combatstress.org.uk

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Date: 19 Apr 2002
Time: 12:50:07

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well done Andy. you beat me to it, I have been trying to get the resources together to set up a help line for the same reasons as yourself. I am now a case worker for The Royal British Legion in South Wales but I still feel isolated in my search for peace of mind. I was lucky enough to be involved in a research project on P.T.S.D. when I was in Manchester. I learnt a lot about the illness and about myself, its a case of one day at a time. if I can assist or join forces maybe we can help even more, there are a lot I have spotted along the way but at the time i was needing help myself so there was not a lot i could do. now i am going in the right direction and its time to bring them in, 25% of homeless people are ex service personnel ( i was one myself ) so i have come a long way and understand many of the problems, your web site is a welcome source for sufferers and i will recommend it to all who need it. best of luck mate. hope to shake your hand one day. ex sapper .

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Date: 24 Apr 2002
Time: 12:36:24

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I WAS AN OFFICER WITH THE IRISH NAVAL SERVICE FOR 12 YEARS REPORTED HARASSMENT MY COMMANDING OFFICER CHANGED THE TITLE TO SEXUAL HARASSMENT I WAS SACKED . LATER SUFFERED HEART ATTACKS AND GENERAL HEALTH DISORDERS RELATED TO THE SACKING. I GOT NO SUPPORT FROM EITHER THE MEDICAL STAFF OF THE DEFENCE FORCES NOR MY FELLOW OFFICERS. PLEASE FEEL FREE TO VISIT MY THANK YOU SORRY FOR SPELLING HAD TO RE SUBMIT SITE http://www.virtualtourist.com/m/.124532/1/?s=m JIM HOSFORD LYNCH FIRST ENGINEER SERV No 129539X 353 21 4811301

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Date: 17 May 2002
Time: 01:57:42

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VERY GOOD ABOUT TIME SOMEONE HELPED US GHOST ROYAL BRITISH LEGION EAST & CANTRAL LEWISHAM BRANCH

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Date: 23 May 2002
Time: 14:31:39

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Hello Andy. My name is Martin Owen and I am head of the Training Department for SSAFA Forces Help, and I’m on your mailing list. I am an ex-serviceman and have an interest in PTSD, particularly its treatment. I have recently been approached by someone offering hypnotherapy for PTSD sufferers. Do you know if anyone has had any experience of this form of treatment? If so, would they recommend it? I would also be grateful for any ideas about what other forms of treatment really work. In my experience this varies widely, but personal recommendation is the best recommendation in my view. My e-mail address is martin.o@ssafa.org.uk Thanks. Keep up the good work! Martin

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Date: 25 May 2002
Time: 12:26:51

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Andy, I have just read your tribute to Sandy poem – WOW, what can I say except, how beautiful it is. I am now sitting here with tears in my eyes and the true “love” that shines through each and every word you use. You have done a wonderful job and I will be creating somewhere on my site to link to this page – with your permission of course?? Fantastic job you’re doing here throughout your site, worthwhile to many hundreds and thousands of people out there – please never underestimate what you have done here. Love Always, Chrissy

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Date: 26 May 2002
Time: 14:39:29

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I am a Falklands war veteran who has suffered from PTSD for the last 20years, I felt isolated and alone as it is difficult to talk about PTSD, I started a group for vets to talk to each other and hopefully help a serviceman or woman who needs to make contact with other sufferes, you can join us at http://uk.groups.yahoo.com/group/cloudpuncherptsd/ I will put this site on my group,
Thanks
Mack http://britains-smallwars.com/Mac/index.html

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Date: 26 May 2002
Time: 16:54:02

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I must say that I have visited many sites lately dealing with PTSD and most are just a place where the PTSD sufferers are bouncing off the walls and each other in an attempt to find answers to what’s making them hurt. The problem with these sites is that most of the time you come away feeling worse than you did before you logged onto them. This site here is so refreshing. It has been inteligently compiled by someone that knows what the symtoms of PTSD are and how to find relief from them through emotional, phsyical and spiritual exercises. A lot of heart went into making this site. Anyone would benefit from practicing what has been laid out here.
Thank you for putting together.
rich buster Vietnam 68/69

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Date: 27 May 2002
Time: 14:36:24

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A very good site with lots of information and up to date reports. With sites like this it means this country might just be moving foward in its recognition of PTSD as a real symptom of war, though I do exclude the MoD because they still have their empty heads in the sand.
Edward Denmark Author NOT FOR QUEEN AND COUNTRY ( See Amazon books on the net)

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Date: 05 Jun 2002
Time: 18:00:50

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i was visited today by major david harding from combat stress today he gave me your card……i have looked at your site and im overwelmed…..after i have had an indepth look i will contact you.i was frontline gulf war im ex grenadier guards.this is an excellent site thankyou. c.gordon.

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Date: 06 Jun 2002
Time: 15:14:23

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hi after creating hell for my wife and family they have come to the conclusion i am suffering PTSD. I served in Africa with French Foreign Legion and saw 64 days of continual active service in which i shot other people and we lost 22 men in a 54 hand to hand battle, then i took part in the Gulf war. Can you help me, please. Mac

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Date: 06 Jun 2002
Time: 15:17:54

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hi after creating hell for my wife and family they have come to the conclusion i am suffering PTSD. I served in Africa with French Foreign Legion and saw 64 days of continual active service in which i shot other people and we lost 22 men in a 54 hour hand to hand battle, then i took part in the Gulf war. Can you help me, please. Mac

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Date: 10 Jun 2002
Time: 18:19:35

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Hi Mac. If you email me on the link at the top of this page I will of course help you as much as I can
Andy

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Date: 10 Jun 2002
Time: 22:43:42

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THE UK HAS A VETERANS PRAYER IN WHICH IT SAYS LEST WE FORGET,,,,,WELL ALONG WITH HUNDREDS OF OTHERS IN THIS COUNTRY WE ARE FORGOTTEN BY THE VERY PEOPLE WE SERVED,,THANKS TO PEOPLE LIKE YOU MAYBE SOON THEY WILL TAKE NOTICE AND REMEMBER,,,,MATOAKA@NTLWORLD.COM

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Date: 13 Jun 2002
Time: 13:20:38

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Great to find somthing at last that i can read about what i have sufferd from for almost 8 years, i have seen so many doctors and HEAD doctors shall we say but it all came to nothing with them, it calmed down for a while but its coming back again as the other stresses in my life are building up, being made redundand a few weeks ago just was not what i needed, but hey s**t happens as they say and life goes on, but it feels like life is going on and i missed the bus….. i will keep looking back with great interest at the pages of this site and hope we can all put the past were it belongs.. in the past!! Terry Boydon tb@terryboydon.com

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Date: 15 Jun 2002
Time: 08:58:59

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God lifes a bastatrd sometimes. You have expectations when in youth, and you achieve what you set out to do, ‘selected for SAS service.’ then it starts, slowly one by one the injuries become more often and worse. You see sights that should not be seen by humans. You fry your brain on CT, gas and lead you find the body decaying faster than your sanity, then all of a sudden, the brain catches up. I am so tired and worn by this PTSD, and YES you may say “hey SAS , you can hack this”. Wrong, no matter who you are you will go through a period when you fancy giving it all away. Now the REAL BATTLE starts, thank heavens there were some around , those older who can come over and say” Tis okay see all those guys, well they are all sick too. ” “dont worry we will understand and help you to understand, for that is worst …understanding hey good site best from Perth Australia {Aust SAS Regt ret} Chris………….farwell Nish I know you are now safe.

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Date: 16 Jun 2002
Time: 07:26:19

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Cheers for your page, I am not in the services but a London Firefighter of 23 years.I have been suffering similar symptoms for some time and see a welfare counsellor. To see everything laid out on my PC as oppossed to talking and trying to remember what a councellor says has helped me understand a lot.There are big changes coming up in my life as I leave the ‘job’, creating more fears and problems. By refering to your site I may be able to cope with them better.I will visit this page again . I’ll also recommend it to a pal from the Marines who served in the Falkland conflict and has problems of his own.. Thanks again,Good Luck to all who visit this site.apoligies if I offend any service personnel by using this site established for your profesion and a sincere thank you for what you do for us,wherever you are.

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Date: 17 Jun 2002
Time: 03:51:13

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Beirut 1982….The ghosts still haunt my past. I’m glad i am no longer alone.

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Date: 22 Jun 2002
Time: 08:53:15

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AS AN EX WELSH GUARD ( 3 COY ) WHO IS IN BITS HEALTH WISE. KNEES, SPINE , HEARING, PTSD, CAN I JUST SAY A THANK YOU FOR YOUR SITE.!!! ITS NICE TO KNOW THAT SOME ONE OUT THERE DOES CARE, HOW IM STILL ALIVE AFTER 20 LONG YEARS OF SUFFERING WITH PTSD, I JUST DONT KNOW.? IF IT WASNT FOR THE THOUGHT OF CAUSING MY FAMILY MORE GRIEF THAN THEY HAVE HAD SINCE THE FALKLANDS WAR, ID HAVE TOPPED MY SELF A LONG TIME AGO. I LIVE WITH THE FEEL OF GUILT EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE, IF I COULD HAVE GONE BACK DOWN BELOW ON THE GALAHAD IF ID JUST HAD A TORCH, IF IF IF IF!! IT JUST TEARS MY SOUL TO BITS, I KNOW IN MY HEART I DID ALL I COULD,BUT THE GUILT FEELING JUST LINGERS ON. SINCE THE FALKLANDS WAR, MY ARMY CARREER WENT TO BITS, COUT MARTALLED, AND POSTED OUT OF BATTALION, TO A LIFE OF LONLINESS AWAY FROM MY BUDDIES IN BATTALION.I LEFT IN 88 IN BITS HEALTH WISE, AND NOW IM OUT IN THE REAL WORLD AND BOY DOES IT SUCK. THANKS FOR YOUR WEB PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK ( 81 ROBERTS X 3 COY ) ( WELSH GUARDS )

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Date: 22 Jul 2002
Time: 15:40:47

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Hi ANDY; it is an honor to sign yor guest book. I am a man from Norway serving as a medic in Lebanon 1988 and 1990, Gulf war 1991, Kroatia 1992, macedonia 1993 and Bosnia 1995. Now i am suffering badly from depressions and PTSD. Keep up yor great work and thenk you for this web site. Paul

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Date: 24 Jul 2002
Time: 09:16:51

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Hello there,
I’ve enjoyed having a look around your site and will come back again in the future. There is a large forces community at http://www.modreunited.com and I thought that you might like to have a look.
Warmest Regards, Brian Bambrick-Sattar Webmaster brianb@modreunited.com www.modreunited.com

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Date: 14 Aug 2002
Time: 10:30:27

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Brilliant site .I can only wish you every sucess in your uphill struggle .I spent 10 years working with service and ex service and am aware of the red tape to get anything for anyone that has served their country. It seem like ex servicemen and women are commited to the scrap heap when the politicians have sucked the last drop of blood and dignity from them.I might add that I have yet to find a politicians name on a war grave.

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Date: 18 Aug 2002
Time: 22:19:29

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What a great site, for me i am a police officer undergoing all the problems and yet the force seem reluctant to admit ptsd is a problem. the time must be coming for people to admit ptsd is here and start to look after people rather than sweep over the problems if i can help you in any way please let me know nigel 01296-583656

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Date: 05 Sep 2002
Time: 21:38:14

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Thank you for putting this gen on the web. I was medically Discharged in 1997 and since then I felt that I was alone. I have even tried to kill myself. I have been to Combat Stress(Audely Court) about 5times but my doctor feels that a Civilian group therapy approach is BETTER so she has stopped me going there. Keep up the good work of telling the world about PTSD. Sol. Leicestershire

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Date: 13 Sep 2002
Time: 20:45:08

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my name is kristine hughes. I was diagnosed with PTSD by the VA. I served in the Navy aboard the USS Yellowstone AD41. I was raped by a Petty Officer.

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Date: 16 Sep 2002
Time: 12:51:18

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I found this site after forming a new relationship with a guy who suffers with PTSD. I contacted Andy for help in understanding the disorder. I never expected the overwhelming warmth, understanding and sheer dedication that I have received from him. He is a truly exceptional and selfless person who I feel priviledged to have encountered in my life. Andy has supported me through a very difficult time in my life and I urge anyone who wants to understand PTSD better to use this site – thank you Andy, you are a very special person who “was worth saving”! God Bless, Your friend, Lynda

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Date: 16 Sep 2002
Time: 13:06:00

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To add to my message above – if there is anyone out there who needs an ear to listen to them please email me on: lyndaburton@hotmail.com – I am a healthcare professional with a working knowledge of mental health but I am just good at listening…Lynda

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Date: 16 Sep 2002
Time: 21:02:29

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0ne day soon i will tell you my tale of events 82 but for now i am still fighting my curse of 20 years zulutango100

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Date: 19 Sep 2002
Time: 12:32:19

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hi andy,
i finally realized i was not going cucko, when i was diagnosed a few months ago. -EXCELLENT WEBSITE
ive tried to get intouch with a few people but they have not returned my e-mails.
ask tony mcnally – cloud puncher fame to get in touch.
Geordie tommo – RA,3PARA.

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Date: 21 Sep 2002
Time: 17:39:29

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I am a sufferer of PTSD which was diagnosed in 1999 after 30 years of struggling with no help whatsoever . I have been a client of Combat Stress since 1999 and cannot praise the help they have given me too highly. the thing to remember is that all who visit Combat Stress suffer from basically the same illness whatever theatre of operations they were in and everyone has been through the same thing to varying degrees, not like in an NHS environment where we can be treated as some kind of aliens . It is brilliant to find a web-site especially for people who suffer ,as we all do for serving our country.

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Date: 21 Sep 2002
Time: 17:57:10

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As a long-term undiagnosed sufferer of PTSD I would like to thank ANDY for this web-site. I suffered and unfortunately so did my family through my drinking and outbursts of temper and quite frankly times of total insanity. I nearly lost everything, my self-respect and dignity had long since gone. In 1999 I was diagnosed with PTSD and the long healing process began. I was put in touch with Combat Stress and began to visit their facility at Newport, Shropshire, where I was treated as a human being and not as some kind of alien as I had been at some NHS hospitals. The thing that I have learned is that whatever theatre of operations we served in we all suffer basically the same illness and can help each other a tremendous amount. sorry for rabitting on. RON

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Date: 24 Sep 2002
Time: 21:54:33

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I there I was in the Gulf War and do have a War Pension for a number of things. I do have some of the items on the list but no Dr as said i got PTSD ALL THE BEST Richard

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Date: 26 Sep 2002
Time: 11:07:23

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A Prayer for the Stressed. Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The Courage, to change the things I cannot accept, and the Widsom, to hide the bodies of those that I had to kill today because they got on my nerves. Also help me to be careful of the toes I step on today as they may be connected to the feet I may have to kiss tomorrow. Help me always to give 100% at work 12% on Monday 23% on Tuesday 40% on Wednesday 20% on Thursday and 5% on Friday. And help me remember…. When I am having a bad day and it seems that people are trying to wind me up, It takes 42 muscles to Frown, 28 to smile, and only 4 to extend my arm and smack someone in the mouth||||

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Date: 26 Sep 2002
Time: 11:09:16

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From wornoutsailor@aol.com
Paddy Leckey-ex L/Steward-HMS Antrim

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Date: 28 Sep 2002
Time: 10:40:41

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I have been suffering from PTSD for over 20 years, and from what I have read it seems that Northern Ireland doesn’t even get a look in. I served with the Ulster Defence Regiment, and we got no breaks ever, (R&R) We Had To LIVE , EAT and BREATH IT and try to survive the best we could 24/7 with absolutely no help from anyone in the Army or MOD.

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Date: 28 Sep 2002
Time: 19:10:01

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I would agree with you that Northern Ireland has caused trauma to many thousands of people whether service or not.
This site is for everyone regardless of Country of origin, creed or religion, if you suffer from PTSD then this is the place for you to get info and hopefully help? As you will see if you read the many messages in my guest book, I have had people from all over the world (including N. Ireland) get help and information from my site.
The first place I have put on the Home Page is ‘Northern Ireland’ so please do not ever think that I decimate against anyone as I do not.
Please contact me on Andy@ptsd.org.uk and we can chat some more if you would like that.
Your friend
Andy

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Date: 28 Sep 2002
Time: 19:23:23

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You know Andy, looking through all the archives, you’ have given all of us with PTSD a lifeline. Your commitment to others is outstanding. Your determination in the face of your own PTSD is appreaciared, and those of us that are attracted to your site, weather it is by default or from word of mouth’ are never disappointed by what we read, and by others that sign the guestbook.
Paddy Leckey wornoutsailor@aol.com

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Date: 08 Oct 2002
Time: 08:20:12

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errrrm, just read this page-1st time,I have PTSD. and Panic anxiety disorder, I live in the USA now-Ex Brit Army 76-84-can anyone stop me from going insane?, either e mail wadsworthsteve@hotmail.com, or call me 318-741-2404 ..tks…serious anyone out there- I have thought about suicide..but Im stronger than that, please guys and galls I drink too much-which right now im drunk ( as usuall),please someone e mail me???-warmest regards to anyone out there who has this Help?????

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Date: 08 Oct 2002
Time: 13:25:46

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Andy, This is a great site, and you are doing a lot to help people suffering from PTSD. You have made a great contribution to ensuring that people understand that PTSD is a genuine disorder, the normal reaction of human beings to abnormal and life-threatening experiences. Well done, and thank you.
Toby Elliott Chief Executive The Ex-Services Mental Welfare Society (COMBAT STRESS) www.combatstress.org.uk

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Date: 16 Oct 2002
Time: 21:11:32

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I think you have a pretty informative cite. There are many questions left unanswered however. For example, where to get help medically and how to file a succesfull claim for compensation.

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Date: 16 Oct 2002
Time: 21:19:52

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Thought I maight revise my last remarks. Didn’t fully appreciate cite first time I went through. I see that there are a lot of people like me on here, how are you guys coping? I am having a terrible time. I came home from Vietnam in 1969 and have always had some ptsd symptoms, but have gotten really bad the past six mo. I have learned that a serious medical problem can trigger ptsd symptoms so that may explain why symptoms are just now getting so terrible. Can’t sleep with out nightmares, cant eat, cant be around people, don’t trust anyone, am having a terrible time. Can anyone give me any suggestions. Am seeing a consoler once a week, civilian, and is helping some, and I am taking medication, and that is helping some, but need much more help. marmax@adelphia.net

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Date: 28 Oct 2002
Time: 22:26:52

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hi. my husband has ptsd from service in the gulf and northern ireland, just like to say what a good site you have. and when he feels up to it he will have a look, also he has just come back from a week in combat stress, and thought it was fantastic, they really helped. although its a shame there is nothing to carry on the treatment he started there at home.he has to wait to go back. its about time the government put some money into nhs treatment for ex-service men and women to have treatment like ,combat stress offer when they get home, and not have to wait for a few months untill they come back.. christina banks

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Date: 28 Oct 2002
Time: 22:31:36

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hi andy, christina banks again, sorry i did mean to say what a good site you have ,a last i have found somthing that makes sense.
keep the good work up…

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Date: 30 Oct 2002
Time: 16:34:25

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First of all – Thank You for this wonderful web site. I am due to go into Combat Stress -Shropshire, again tomorrow – 31st october 2002, this will be my 3rd visit in 2 years. They are wonderful, caring people. I arrived at the Falklands the exact day it ended, we were ‘willing’ our ship to go faster. I was dealing with ‘sensitive’ signal traffic upto 3 months prior to the conflict, from our lads inside the Argentine comm-cen, then afterwards dealing with ‘casevac’ traffic for those dying/dead and wounded. Including some good mates. No one trained me to deal with the effects of this at all. Why did we have a war with all of this ‘insider’ information coming in to our communications/intelligence operatives? Now I feel unable to trust those in positions of authority – governments etc, and often wish I was dead as I am certainly not the same person over these past 10 years. I don’t mean to go on about this, but simply to say to whoever may read this that probably the most positive thing to come out from all of this is that I now feel able to talk to others about my experiences (PTSD) without feeling guilty or ashamed – if I had broken my arm then it would be treated with plaster of paris etc, so why not treat my mental health? Thanks for the opportunity to put my views across on your web site.
David P (ex tactical operator)

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Date: 02 Nov 2002
Time: 08:30:54

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Andy, I really enjoyed surfing through your website. Your site is ultra informative written in the lay person format. I understand what a battle PTSD is with loved ones. I find that the best recourse at the moment is exhaustive patience (which is a quality that I could polish up on). I appreciate all of the time and effort that you went through to create this wonderful site for others to benefit from as well. I hope that this comment finds you well…and in good spirits. Peace to you and yours Ronda:)

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Date: 03 Nov 2002
Time: 16:33:54

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Hi you might know a very good friend of mine Charlie Lyman ex chef and also servered in bosina at the place that got shelled on a daily basis infact charlie has told me that going to the freezer unit was a night mare as they got mortered every time they stuck their heads out of cover. I worked with Charlie and his companions in germany for over two years running the the only private and voulnatry clinic in Dortmund at my expense and i also treated his family and many other families who are the unsung and neglected persons in all this never mind the primary suffer of PTSD and i know from personal experience as I was a Aden veteran (GSM with two bars)and now I am the National Aden veteran associations Welfare officer. I still treat families of PTSD sufferers including the their children. My wife runs a fast growing support group for Families sufferering from secondary PTSD. I also train family members in how deal with and cope with their traumatised partners. Contact me via info@businesstraumagroup.co.uk

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Date: 03 Nov 2002
Time: 17:50:20

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DEAR ANDY,I DO HOPE IT WAS OK TO CALL BY AT YOUR WONDERFUL SITE.I WAS SEARCHING FOR PTSD INFO,AND STUMBLED UPON YOUR SITE AS A HAPPY ACCIDENT.I AM NOT FROM A MILITARY BACKGROUND HOWEVER WORKED IN A CIVILIAN EMMERGENCY SERVICE BEING THE AMBULANCE SERVICE AS A PARAMEDIC.I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH PTSD IN THE MID 90S AND BEEN LEFT WITH A LEGACY OF VARYING SYMPTOMS SUCH AS YOU DESCRIBE AT THE SITE,ANYWAY LOVE THE SITE KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK MY FRIEND,REGARDS DAVID.

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Date: 03 Nov 2002
Time: 20:16:14

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Hi Andy,
As the wife of a sufferer of PTSD for over 20 years, I would just like to say that we will be thinking of you all over the next weekend of Remberence Sunday, I know from first hand experience what this weekend can do and mean to so many PTSD sufferers. As I mentioned you you before if there are any wives of PTSD sufferers who would like to get in touch with me for a chat and to see if we can help each other I would be very pleased to do so.
Take care,
Sue Riggs.

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Date: 03 Nov 2002
Time: 20:17:34

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Andy,I feel sad that you had to prove your self so to speak, personaly speaking it dosent realy matter whether you had PTSD or not and least of all it is of no concern to any one as to where you picked up the dreadfull PTSD bug, your web site is very informitive and makes no claims as to your personal exsperiences. Keep up the good work
PJLygo@aol.com

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Date: 03 Nov 2002
Time: 20:50:40

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Andy, Your E Maiil,s of infomation are a GOD send, I left the Army in 1976, I went through most of the diagnois on your web site, my original doctors just put it down to depression, but inside i knew that it was some ting else and suffered alone.My new doctors listened to me. Even though i still take anti depression tablets i feel that because of your work,un selfishly i may add, i know that what i suffer was not some made up and that i,am not alone any more, a feeling as you know is the most hurtful distroying thing any one can feel. Andy many thanks Alan

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Date: 04 Nov 2002
Time: 04:58:51

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I was referred to your web site by a friend who thought it might be helpful. Have been trying to address PTSD with phsychologist who just has no idea about war, impacts, etc., and finding it very difficult. Your site has been very useful to me, especially understanding how my behaviours, whilst they may not be healthy, are not as unusual or as outrageous as I had thought that they were. I believe that the information becuase it comes from a non-threatning source is more easily accepted. Your understanding which is based on experience makes the pill a little easier to swallow – I sometimes feel like punching the therapist :-) . Kind regards. Brigitte

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Date: 06 Nov 2002
Time: 11:00:53

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hi andy, yet again you lead from the front, an example to many.sometimes writing your experiances down is easier than talking.you mentioned finer details,well write them down too and keep them to yourself, and read them every day.then when your ready to share them it should be a release.im proud of you mate,some will have gone through worse some less ,its no contest we are all individuals so some are affected more than others.good luck.craig.you know how to get me.

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Date: 06 Nov 2002
Time: 17:05:03

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Sir
I am not an ex-serviceman. But 10 years ago I was in a head-on crash with a car that crossed into my lane. We were both doing around 60 mph. He died. Looking back as best I can I would say that after a few days I started to withdraw into myself. I became a recluse. I remained like that for 3 years until my solicitor came to me about the legal case involved. He saw what I was like compared with before and forced me to visit a psychologist who specialises in PTSD. I thought I was going insane. It is a terrible situation to be in. Nothing is real. I have been seeing the psychologist now for over 6 years. I am much better – but far from ‘right’. I waited too long to start getting help.
I have lost my business, my house, everything. Anything you can do to alert people to this widespread horror is so very worthwhile.
My thanks for your efforts.
John Davey

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Date: 10 Nov 2002
Time: 23:37:21

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I know not who I used to be, I know not who I am My mirrored face looks just the same, yet that is but a sham. For here within my soul did die – and then again reborn, But not as me, not as I was, now shocked and left forlorn. I know that you don’t understand, thank God that you cannot! On no one would I wish this curse, much better they were shot. But we who suffer understand – onward our care we pass, And give our help to those like us – the woundless, injured mass.John Davey

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Date: 18 Nov 2002

Time: 20:25:46

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I WORK WITH A YOUNG MAN WHO HAS P.T.S.D.I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET HIM SUPPORT FROM THE ARMY,ALL TO NO AVAIL. THIS YOUNG MANS LIFE HAS BEEN DESTROYED BY HIS EXPERIENCES IN NOTHEN IRELAND.HE FEELS ABANDONDED BY THE ARMY. HE SHOWS MORE COURAGE DAILY THAN ANY OF THE PEN PUSHERS IN WHITEHALL PUT TOGETHER. RAY.

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Date: 19 Nov 2002
Time: 12:36:48

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A terrific site and a great help. My counselling is going well and i’m on the up now.

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Date: 27 Nov 2002
Time: 22:07:42

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My sisters youngest son who is 19 is in Kosovo at the moment and was the other day at an incident where he saw 3 civilians shot dead, as yet i am not aware of him being offerd any help with this, i do know that he was very shocked by it as he has told that to his mother (my sister)and, as a sufferer of PTSD myself i know its not always what you feel at the time but its when years later when it caches up on you and tears your life to bits, i my self am on a big downer at the moment, in fact i cant get any lower with out having to dig a fliping trench !!! to go under ground, i hope he never has to suffer this and i hope the army do their job and offer him some help before its to late. TB

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Date: 08 Dec 2002
Time: 18:27:55

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i served with the 7 armd brigade in the gulf and have suffered mental problems since . i was discharged in 93 services no longer required after cutting my wrists .i never recived any help at all and reading your stress section was scary because i feel that way now.i hope now to get some help.keep up the good work. joseph_1971@hotmail.com

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Date: 09 Dec 2002
Time: 03:31:13

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Hi my name is Alan Dorber and I am the Secretary of the Veterans Support and Advocacy Service Inc in Australia. Site address ausvets.com.au. e-mail ausvets@ausvets.com.au I congratulate you on your site. We have been running for 10 years and operate from a Girl Guide hut which we converted as offices in Toowong Queensland. We have been dealing with veterans from all conflicts involving Australian Servicemen and Women. We also assist ex service personal from allied forces. We provide Advocacy and support for those suffering and offer advice to families. If we can be of assistance to any one please don,t hesitate to send us a message. Again congratualations on your site. Lets stick together and help each other.

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Date: 14 Dec 2002
Time: 01:22:02

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well folks as quick as i can,well done andy for such a good effort on the web site.exelent. however the only critisiam i can make of the many sites availible on ptsd is the lack of information on benifits.[we all need to live] i have been a sufferer of ptsd now for the last 18 months my catalyst was my discovery of a young man hanging in prison.9i am a prison officer,x army.@ present and from the begining i was fortunate to understand what was wrong with me, call it spiritual intuition. i have been keeping a diary of my ongoing situation religiously and hope within the next few months to post it on,hopefully this web site,however this message is totally of the cuff so i will have to liase with andy @ a future date but watch this space i hope to show a way forward for us all in the future.i am playing the system to the end so keep em peeled and watch this space blessings to all who are there and involved. -p- x

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Date: 16 Dec 2002
Time: 01:25:45

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I feel being treated for bipolar has never helped me

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Date: 16 Dec 2002
Time: 02:13:29

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I feel being treated for bipolar has never helped me completly can a person be treated for both PTSD and manic depression with out fear of bring back things that might be better left undone. at age 59 my memory is far from total recall. my family has always said that after being discharged in 1968 I have never been the same. I sould have gone to coll- ege in stead of 4years 27days active [honorable]

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Date: 17 Dec 2002
Time: 10:37:33

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Hi Andy
Great site. I have been diagnosed with service attributable PTSD by the DSS/Veterans Agency with an effective date of Feb 2000. Strange this considering that I was medically discharged from the Marines in June 1992. My War Pension was increased accordingly but not back-dated to my release date. To compound matters in 1981 I was resident on a military psychiatric ward for 4 months with an undiagnosed stress related illness after being treated as an out-patient for over 2 years (after an incident in Crossmaglen, Ulster). Upon my release from this ward I was sent almost immediately on Op Corporate (Falklands War), and over the next few years several more tours of Ulster and eventually Iraq (after which I was medically discharged with non PTSD related physical injuries). Throughout this time and up to the present day I continued to see psychiatrists, psychologists and my (MO)GP on a very regular basis. This situation only magnifies the MOD’s lack of concern and general medical negligence with regard to PTSD. I have suffered with the consequesces of PTSD for 24 years now, 22 of them undiagnosed, and I am now in danger of losing my job having been of work with PTSD for 22 months out of the last 33. I have suffered all the mentioned symptoms, been devorced twice, been arrested for drink related incidents etc etc. Oh for a good nights kip without booze, I don’t even like the stuff. Keep up the good work spreading the word…..make the MOD sit up, listen and act.

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Date: 30 Dec 2002
Time: 01:06:08

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Hi , Andy site great as always . I’M OFF TO audley COURTon 01\02\03. They’ve finally got me in at the right time for them to study the behaviour 31 years on of someone who was actually in Bloody Sunday .I’ll contact you before I go with my new E-mail address all the best RON

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