Archived Messages 2010

January – December 2010

Date: 13 Jan 2010
Time: 04:19


Good work! Really interesting site.

Date: 26 Jan 2010
Time: 01:16


I’m not an ex-service person, but have PTSD after suffering domestic abuse, then being stalked and harassed for years by my ex-husband- he also hurt my child. It’s taken several years to accept the horrendous problems I’m left with, which just won’t go away. I just wanted to say thank you because your site is one of the most helpful I’ve found. I’m finally starting to get some good help now but still have flashbacks, panic attacks , nightmares- well, you know how it works…Feel like I’m intruding since I’m obviously a civilian and have never experienced war or death, but didn’t want to read and run. So much of this site has such valuable and sensible advice and information. I’m bookmarking it to help me with my own fight against PTSD- thanks again.

Date: 24 Feb 2010
Time: 12:40


Andy, after reading your book, my heart goes out to you and all those who are suffering with this terrible illness PTSD. I bought your book to gain a better understanding about PTSD and what it can be like for the sufferer. My son is 21 and is about to embark on his second tour of duty (Afghanistan)… I want to be able to pick up on any signs on his return should the need arise. I want to be there for my son, to be able to allow him to talk and fight any demons which may be lurking. I am willing to listen, to learn and to understand and if I can help in anyway I will do.

I want him to know that he is not alone and I would never turn my back on him if he were be diagnosed with PTSD later on in his life.

To all those who are dealing with this illness, I wish you all Godspeed and pray that you will one day be able to live a normal life, free from hidden demons. Don’t let the darkness win, thanks to Andy and this site and the help which is available, you will conquer.

Love, hugs and Angel blessings

Mrs Michaela Turner (aka Kale) proud mother of a serving soldier xxx

Date: 06 Mar 2010
Time: 22:52


Hi, I am the wife of a vet who has just been diagnosed as having ptsd and I have found it of great help going through your website. It has helped me understand it more. I have also read the poems which were so emotional and brought me to tears, I just cant imagine what these guys go through.

Living with someone who has ptsd is hard but is a lot harder for them.

Society needs to do more for these guys.

Date: 08 Mar 2010
Time: 15:32


What a wonderful site! I am unfortunately a PTSD victim. My experience was whilst a serving Police Officer some twenty years ago. I had to go down the private sector route for treatment the NHS did not offer the treatments which were suitable for me at that time. I was not diagnosed in the early stages of my condition, and I still live with the condition today but have learnt how to manage my symptoms. I am presently seeking help for a relative he was a victim of combat stress in the first Gulf War and came across your website.

I just wish there had been this information available for me! I can’t thank Andy enough for his patience and dedication to the website. I am sure more people will benefit from this site now and in the future.

Once again a bigg thank you your work is much appreciated.


Date: 31 Mar 2010
Time: 22:14


Hi Andy just to say your book is brilliant!! You must be so proud….I found it very interesting and informative, I would love to read more….any thoughts about another book. Your website is the best one I can find re PTSD. It was a real life saver for me. THANK YOU so much Andy, thank you.

Please take care and best wishes to you and everybody that visits your site x

Date: 19 Apr 2010
Time: 14:35


Thank you for giving some of yourself to help another.

Date: 27 Apr 2010
Time: 15:54


Just Simply Thank you

Date: 27 May 2010
Time: 19:57


Hi Andy,

Is this site still active? Had a flick through and noticed that the archive is only to 2009.

The insight is remarkable :) PTSD has been a ‘constant companion’ for me for well over 30 years. Didn’t get diagnosed until 2003.

Being a civilian, we sort of got ‘overlooked’. Mine is an accumulation of numerous extreme ‘events’ spanning from early childhood to the present day… I was wondering how many PTSD sufferers experience this relentless onslaught?

Kind regards,


Hi Linda

Yes the site is still active, I have not backed up any of the guestbook entries since July 2010, I will do so soon but nothing is lost, just that the live guestbook has 10 months of data in it ;-)

There are many people who have suffered like you have but there are not many websites that address these and provide information and support. I hope that you find my website both informative and useful? You can always email direct if you want to chat confidentually.


Date: 25 July 2010
Time: 20:24


I have found this site very helpful. Although I didn’t think I had PTSD until diagnosed by my doctor after having a simple appendix removal operation which went very wrong leaving part of my bowel hanging out so having to have another operation to put it right.

A year on after losing nearly 2 stone and some of my hair I am still on antidepressants and am petrified of hospitals. My story does not seem as bad as people who have been in combat or at war so really I feel that I am lucky after seeing some of the stories others have told.

Date: 30 August 2010
Time: 21:36


Hi all I served 9 years in the r.c.t/r.l.c I was caught up in the Lisbon bks bombing in 1996 I was in 26 sqn shq building when the first detonated and in the med centre when the second detonated my symptoms started with restlessness not being able too sleep then it affected my physical fitness and not being able to breath ultimately panic attacks I was kicked out the army Nov 1999 after being diagnosed as a hypochondriac the doctor must have known I had PTSD but kicked me out when all I wanted was help.

It’s a terrifying thing to think your going to lose control to think your going to die because I received no help I went on to cut my wrists and now I live in shame with that also. Just the other morning I went to A & E in hairmyers hospital where I was left in a cubicle and I could hear the doctors and nurses laughing at me. I now receive a 70% pension and no state benefit. Wish I had my life back solitary man Glasgow.

Date: 2 September 2010
Time: 12:30



I wish I found this site a long time ago, for my brother! He had suffered with PTSD, for the last 16 years, He served in N.I. On leaving the army his life was never the same, he suffered so much, and we as a family never really knew the full extent of it (I wish I did, but he would never tell us). Last year, I thought that things were at last coming together for him, he came to live with me, and I stupidly thought everything would be ok!!! He started a small business, and was doing well, he moved out of my house into his flat in March this year. But those demons were still there, and I didn’t realise!! On May 1st this year my 36 year old brother passed away!! He was only a young man when he served, and it destroyed him. It was only until the coroner’s inquest hearing that we realised what he saw in N.I… The demise of his friends, and was read out in detail at court.

The loss of my brother is unbearable, when we went through his things, he had written all his thoughts down, it breaks my heart, he was in such a dark place. He wrote some wonderful poems as well as poems relating to his death. We read one out at his funeral that he had written for his children.

I urge all of you if you are suffering please please please get help, tell your family, tell your friends, they can help. It’s to late for us, and I wish I could turn back the hands of time, but I cant. There is not enough help for you guys and there should be.

I want to do more to help, any advice on doing this would be greatly received. I couldn’t do it for Lee even though I thought I was helping, but it wasn’t enough.

My thoughts are with you all.

Tracy xxxx

Date: 9 September 2010
Time: 18:20


My life has collapsed… I’ve lost my family and my drive to live. I feel the navy has let me down badly. It has been good to read your website.

Thank you.

Date: 19 September 2010
Time: 00:49



such a fab website I’ve got PTSD have gone through all the services and counseling with only small improvement have been told not much else they can do but ur information has been great it explains a lot of stuff I’m unable to put into words and how much PTSD can effect so much around us including friendships of wat I have left many thanks

Date: 20 September 2010
Time: 18:09


Hi Guys, great site SO informative and helpful. I have had PTSD for 10 yrs and gone though numerous traumatic events during that time and I’ve never been in the armed forces or 999 services. Also I’m a woman.

I have found that many things help me to get me through the day and I never go anywhere with out my bottle of bach flower Rescue Remedy. If you find anything that’s therapeutic and helps you hold on to it with both hands. You Guys just remember there’s hope and love and believe in yourselves and sometimes you can have a good day too. Hard but true.

LOL AJ xxx

Date: 27 September 2010
Time: 13:02


Hi Andy and to all the readers of this site.

Firstly well done on the great site you have put together. I served in the Army for 7years and in that time saw active service in N Ireland, Bosnia and Kosovo.

On leaving the forces I thought life was great until several years later when PTSD set in! I started with nightmares that in turn manifested into waking flashbacks. This is when I turned to drink to help me cope. I began becoming withdrawn and sullen, getting angrier with life and people.

I began to become aggressive and violent, which was completely out of character. It eventually led to me losing my home, my girlfriend, my job and having a criminal conviction.

I am pleased to say now that after months of intense and emotional therapy I am now a lot better; I have a new job and have recently got engaged to a fantastic girl who stood by me throughout my dark days.

I just want to let other sufferers know that with help and people like you, life is worth living and there is a light at the tunnel, but you cant do it on your own, you have got to talk to people.

Date: 29 September 2010
Time: 16:07



I just want to leave this message as I think you website was a enlighten to me as the world I was living in was total PTSD. I thought I was going mad and could not come to terms with some of my behaviour. As a soldier you are brainwashed to kill with no emotional attachment and to keep moving forward. no flight response

Before joining the army I was a victim of many assaults and witnessed a stabbing of a close friend. I lived in a area of gang related violence and drugs.

I was also caught up in an explosion where some of my friends were on fire.

I joined the army at the age of sixteen witnessed and been a victim of severe bullying and led into a lifestyle of alcohol which is a vent for most soldiers. I spent a few years in northern Ireland witnessing dead bodies and being hyper vigilant and was nearly killed. When you are on active service or even at home depending on where you live you are constantly on guard and awaiting for something to happen. I think as a solider this is increased and you stay on guard. especially when you don’t know here you enemy is. when it does happen you do as you are trained but subconsciously it is still there.

When this stress goes on for a long time and you do more tours. Your body keeps doing this as prolonged stress and so your drink more and maybe have a short fuse which can lead to altercations and trouble. you will no what I mean if you’ve got it.

I always locked away my feelings and never spoke about how I felt. I was assaulted ten years later and all my past came back to me in one hit.

Flash backs. intrusive thoughts, the bullying, incidents.

and total paranoia and not feeling safe.

some of the topics in the website is exactly how I feel and could only be written by someone in the same position.

I think that soldiers and civilians with mental health issues are underlooked and are discriminated. If I was shown how to cope with traumatic incidents from an early age maybe I would not be in this position.

The MOD does not have control measures in place to help soldiers exit the forces with appropriate help. Combat stress have helped me with my issues and educated how to cope with my condition.

I have been suffering from trauma all my life and it has taken 25 years to address this. If you are in your twenties now and suffering maybe from Afghanistan or Iraq then get help from combat stress and do no prolong the recovery. Acceptance leads to recovery and as a soldier acceptance is hard when you are brainwashed to kill and move forward. don’t worry I have had the piss taken out of me for going to combat stress but I had no choice I was mentally ill.

seeing your mate killed or working in an environment where you could be killed is stressful and not normal so talk to someone detached.

you are not weak only human

all the best

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